chaos week

salam and ii to everyone. its me again. updating this blog for a second time. but this time i think im gonna do it in a malay + english version. aku pn xtaw nape aku tulis post sebelum nie dalam english. tp tue la. setiap kali aku nak luahkan perasaan, aku akan tulis lam english. xtaw nape. aku cuma susah utk mencari ayat BM yg sesuai utk meluahkan perasaan. and i did find its quite a good feeling writing in english. see. stat BI balik.. xleh kawal. its jz appear like that. tgk.. =,=

so minggu nie minggu aku yg leh dikatakan minggu yg agak free. aku cuma ade kelas sekali je pada ari isnin. selasa dan kamis. rabu xde kelas. jumaat 2 kelas. tp waktu free nie buatkan aku bnyak berfikir about my life. there are a lot of thing come out in my mind. not to mention about my grandmother.. i think a lot about my study and also my future career..

i love to be at UTM. i know a lot of people, learn a lot about life, i find love, i find cheating, i find hurting, im hurting sumone i love and a tons of thing that i ever done in UTM. jz lately, im too lazy about study. im too lazy to go to class, to lazy to study. im jz too enjoying having a program and meet new frenz. nak kata sbb susah x gak. im still having a good result. sumtime 4.0, sumtime rendah, sumtime tinggi. but im jz too lazy and too boring. im definitely, definitely dont understand what is going on with me. so there it is about my study.

meanwhile im also thinking about my career. i really2 dont feel like to being an engineer @ all those casual work. u know. work that need u go to office at 8 am and back to home at 5 pm. everyday. i mean, i cannot even think how im gonna do that for one year. its too boring. i dont like that. i dont like to work and do the same thing each and everyday. i want sumting that im gonna do it differently. if not everyday, perhaps every week @ month. sumtime im thinking about being a chef. i love to eat and cook. so its gonna be a good career for me. but u know, i already 3 years in UTM and jz hv one year more before i graduate. am i gonna let those 3 years waste like that?

im also think about being a traveller. pegi melawat tempat ke tempat. bantu org susah. tgk kesusahan org. tp dalam keadaan dunia skrg, sume tue mustahil kecuali anda mempunyai sumting yg dipanggil DUIT. yeah. xde duit xleh watpe r. seriusly, if im rich ( i mean too rich), i will stop study and being a traveller. mahu menjadi seorang yg melimpahkan kurniaan Allah tnpa pernah menghitungnya. i really2 love to be that person. but u know, its impposible for me. im not that rich. tp sape taw an satu hari 6t aku jd kaya ke. so doa2 la an. ne taw aku jumpa harta karun ke, aku invent sumting yg bernilai juta2. haha ( berangan kuat)

that all from me  i think. this week is really2 been a tough and chaos week for my mind. there are a tons of thing that i think.. hopefully there is a better days for tomorrow. amin. :)